Being a teacher is not easy. It makes your soul up and down like roller coaster. Deep inside my heart I only want to share all knowledge I know even the smallest or biggest one my students need to know even though they think they don't.
I only want to share, share honestly without lie. Sometimes students make you so happy because of their positive deeds, but sometimes they make you cry, crying like a baby.
For me it's okay feeling that way once, twice or three times, but God... if it happens many times... I'm only human, I cannot cope it...
Sometimes I really want to cry, but should I cry in front of them just to show that what they have done to me was really hurting my heart? I'm not that kind of teacher. I try to be patient, to hide every single pain I felt. Try not to be too childish to show it.
Well, I try to tell myself that this is all for them, none in return to me. It's just kind of subjection, I got salary but well, that's not the only thing I want. Deep down inside me, I really want to see them grow as a very successful children.
I don't really know will they still remember me when they grow up, when I grow older, when thye have got their successful life, when I was suffering from my old diseases.